What’s On My Nightstand – September

What's On Your Nightstand I am very excited to be reading again. I read few books this summer and nothing that was challenging. This fall, just in time for back to school, I am challenging myself to learn something. I have some thoughts on educating myself, what excites me about learning, and my goals for education. All will be posted another day.

For today, here’s what is on my nighstand, er, coffee table.

It’s a huge pile of books and there is no way I will complete them all before they are due back at the library. Some of them are my husband’s books and others are reference material. For instance, I borrowed a chronological study Bible just to see what it’s like. At first glance, I love it. If I still like it after reading a bit, I’m going to purchase one.

Top priority books:
Lies Women Believe and the Truth That Sets Them Free – I’ve seen this one highly recommended around the blogsphere and thought it was worth checking out.
The Jesus You Can’t Ignore: What You Must Learn from the Bold Confrontations of Christ – I received this as a review copy and need to finish reading it this weekend.
Love & Respect – Another book that was highly recommended to me. So far I keep saying “yes, yes, I do that.” But I’m almost half way through the book and I want to know what I’m supposed to do about it. More later.
The Well-Educated Mind – I’ve actually finished reading this book but I marked a few spots where I need to go back and take notes. I need to finish up quickly, as it’s a very popular book at my library and I’m sure I won’t be able to renew it.
Canterbury Tales – My husband keeps challenging me to read a classic, so I asked him to pick one out for me. I’ve never read Chaucer, so I’ll be interested to see how I do with this massive piece of literature.

What are you reading this month?

A new goal

Months ago, I started working on smart habits. For some reason, I allowed myself to become lazy and let my newly formed habits lapse. Now that I’m starting to get serious about my homemaking, I want to dedicate myself to building good habits.

Lara encourages people to start with small habits that will build on each other. Instead of saying that “I want to keep my house clean” I will start with smaller habits. Once I establish those smaller habits, I will find that my house naturally stays clean.

The first habit I want to establish involves eliminating dirty dishes. We are constantly washing a couple plates or forks while soaking pots sit in the sink. Ew.

Habit #1 – at the end of each day, all dishes will be washed, dried, and put away.

I’m almost ready for bed and all of my dishes are washed. It’s a great feeling.

Hot, hot, hot

How did people survive before the invention of air conditioning? Was it easier because your body was more acclimated to the heat as you transitioned from spring to summer? Was the temperature cooler 100 years ago without all the cars and asphalt?

I am melting. Today was the third full day without air conditioning and my brain cells are melting. I will try to remember to appreciate our air conditioner more once it’s fixed!

Surprise from my hubby

I woke up in an incredibly bad mood. There’s no excuse for it, though I could try. There’s just no excuse.

Hubby ran to the store for a couple grocery items and came back with a surprise.

There is no way I deserved these and I was really humbled. My hubby is so sweet.

When it rains, it pours!

I had a rough time right after getting out of bed this morning.

My cat is limping and has a giant mass under his leg. He has a vet appointment in 90 minutes.
The air conditioning in our apartment broke and I have no idea when the maintenance guy will be here. It’s hot.
One of the check engine lights in our car came on this morning.

My husband made a quip after I ran down the list: “At least you still have internet!”

True, true. I still have internet. I’m an internet addict and must work on that.

In all seriousness, though, my Bible reading this morning was exactly what I needed. How awesome is God?

Why art thou cast down, O my soul?
and why art thou disquieted in me?
hope thou in God:
for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance.

Why art thou cast down, O my soul?
and why art thou disquieted within me?
hope thou in God:
for I shall yet praise him,
who is the health of my countenance, and my God.

Psalm 42:5, 11

Why is my soul despondent? Why am I stressing? I have hope in God. I can still praise Him, because He is great. When has He ever let me down?

Friday!

I am so glad it is Friday evening. I look forward to an entire 24 hours to spend relaxing with God. What a blessing that always is. I find myself wishing Sabbath would never end, but that’s not possible.

Today ended up being a really crazy day. Earlier this week I was bit by… something. Spider? The area was really itchy and it’s now hard and surrounded by purple. It looks like a giant bruise, but I know I didn’t run into anything. We weren’t sure if I should visit the doctor or wait it out. I’m very hesitant about traditional medicine and try to avoid taking unnecessary drugs. However, a quick search on the internet showed that it is advisable to see a physician any time a bug bite turns purple. That’s a bad sign.

Hubby had to work this morning so we made the appointment for 3:00. I chose my primary care physician a few years ago and love her (when I have to go). Her office is a 45 minute drive from our current house, as I lived a lot closer to her when I selected her as my physician. Hubby’s appointment ran very long and he wasn’t able to pick me up until 2:20. Thankfully, traffic was great and we walked in right on time. Today I wasn’t able to see my physician, but I saw another great doctor in her office.

Well, it turns out my body is hyper-sensitive to whatever it was that bit me and the doc said I had an allergic reaction and the blood vessels swelled, which is why it looks like a huge bruise. She said it will heal on its own but gave me a cream to stop the fierce itching, which will help me not scratch it so it can heal. Yay.

So that’s that. Praise the Lord for great insurance, which made our visit cost a total of $26 for both the office visit and the prescription cream. Much cheaper than my cat’s veterinary visit last week!

Posting – Lite Edition

Sorry for the light posting this week, but I still have more questions going on than answers. I’m processing a few things and don’t really have much to say at the moment.

I turned off the comment verification. Hopefully that makes things easier for anyone who wishes to comment (I love reading your comments!). I wanted to turn off comment moderation as well but after less than 12 hours without comment verification, I’ve already received several icky spam comments. So that will have to stay. If you feel like leaving a comment and can’t for whatever technical reason, email me (address is on the right) and I’ll figure out what’s wrong. It’s always nerve wracking making technical changes behind the scenes because I’m afraid I’ll mess something up!

No answers, but encouragement

This morning I decided to spend some time in Psalms instead of doing my in depth Bible study. All it took was one chapter before I found a bit of peace. My questions are still there, but I found reassurance that God is even bigger than my questions.

Be of good courage,
and he shall strengthen your heart,
all ye that hope in the LORD

Psalm 31:24.

What a great promise!

Questions

I’m still having a hard time putting into words what I’ve been pondering. I’ve actually been very discouraged these past few days about these questions. I can’t tell if God is nudging me to make changes or if the devil is trying to pull me down.

Is being a full time homemaker (without children) really what God wants for me?

Am I supposed to be doing something to help fulfill the Great Commission (Matthew 28:18-20)?

Is it selfish to be spending my life at home, only ministering to my husband? Do I need to pursue volunteer work?

Is it okay for me to pursue additional education when I don’t have a traditional career?

Am I doing enough? I’ve always been a driven person, whether with education or career or finances. Now I feel like “all” I am doing is taking care of my husband. It’s not that it’s not a noble thing to do, but is it enough? Is homemaking really a Biblical calling?

I have a bunch of questions and I’m not sure where to find the answers. I’m praying but I’m not sure I know how to listen for God’s response.