I have to learn to not be so upset when plans go awry. My disappointment affects my hubby and then he feels bad for something that isn’t his fault. I have no desire to harm him but I don’t know how to accept change. We were planning on going out of town tomorrow morning, driving up to the mountains for a picnic and a hike. Unfortunately, hubby now has work scheduled immediately after sundown. Because there is no guarantee that we can return so early in the evening, we have to stay home.
I’m extremely disappointed because we rarely leave Phoenix and my heart is in the forests, not the city. I love hiking, love the mountains, love picnics, and really wanted to spend the day with hubby away from the city, the noise, the pollution, and worries. The Sabbath is a great day to spend enjoying God’s nature. I haven’t seen the mountains in several years and I long to get away from this city.
My disappointment and tears about canceling our trip made hubby feel really bad. I hate watching him withdraw into sadness and his own disappointment. But I don’t know how to accept change in plans with grace. We’re going to go hiking tomorrow, just on one of the Phoenix “mountains.” It just isn’t the same.