Restless

I am restless. It’s an odd feeling, one I’m not used to. I’ve been feeling this way for the past week or so.

Our apartment is clean. My daily chores take under an hour because everything stays clean. This is a great problem to have, but I am used to housework taking half the day! I have organized most everything in the apartment, sorting through our belongings and paring down as much as possible. We still have a few packed boxes stacked up in the spare room but I haven’t convinced myself to discard those yet.

I spend between an hour and 1.5 hours per day studying Japanese. I feel like I’m actually learning something! Yesterday, I tried listening to a podcast and understood small pieces of it. When we finally reach Japan, I’m hoping to be able to communicate with those who live there.

I don’t know what else to do with myself. I’ve read way too many historical Christian fiction books in the past three weeks and I’m kind of burned out on fiction. I need to spend more time quilting but haven’t yet set aside blocks of time to do it.

The basic cause of my restlessness is that I’m trying to eliminate activities that are useless. I don’t want to waste my life on earth, having God ask me what I did with my time. Several bloggers I follow have been talking about what is Good vs. Better vs. Best. They are encouraging their readers to spend time on what is Best, rather than what is Good, Better, or Bad. Now I’ve been spending a lot of time determining if my activities qualify as the Best use of my time/resources/energy.

If I hold myself to a higher standard of only pursuing activities that are considered the Best, what does that include? I still don’t know.

A rambling post, but a few of my thoughts.

Two cats left

I really do intend to post but I have no AA batteries and thus no camera. Everything that I want to post about requires photos!

We have had a rather traumatic past several weeks. We are now down to 2 cats instead of our normal 3. Several years ago, when we rescued our first cat, we visited the apartment office to sign an addendum to our lease that states we have paid a pet deposit. Check in hand, we notified the manager that we needed to sign some paperwork and make our cat “legal.” She was impressed that we had rescued a kitten and, being an animal lover herself, decided to waive our deposit and not add the cat to the lease. At the time, it was a real blessing. Our apartment requires several hundred dollars in pet deposits and an additional monthly pet rent.

Fast forward several years, several new managers, anxiously dealing with any necessary visits from maintenance (if the office decided to get angry about our cats, they could legally evict us)… We ended up rescuing three cats total. Our first was a 6 week old kitten found in someone’s backyard in the middle of winter, freezing cold and close to starving. The second cat was a 7 year old female that no one wanted due to her age. Our third rescue and adoption was a one day old kitten whose mother had been frightened off. My husband and I bottle fed that kitten and he’s now two years old.

We didn’t have any intention of adopting three cats. They all kind of adopted us. But the apartment only allows two at a time. For awhile, we ignored the limit but I started feeling really bad about it and wanted to make things right. After much discussion and prayer, hubby and I decided that when we renewed our lease this summer, we would add two cats. That meant one cat had to go.

No one wanted the seven year old cat 2.5 years ago when we adopted her. That would make it even more difficult for us to find her a home now as people tend to want kittens. I am VERY attached to our two year old cat as I’m his mom (seriously, he sees me as his mother because he never knew his). That meant that the cat we adopted first needed to find a new home.

Several ads online, much stressing, and a whole lot of prayer resulted in us finding a potential adopter on Sunday evening. We took the cat, some food, and his toys over to the new home and dropped him off. We stuck around for a few minutes and it looked like the lady liked our cat and that the cat would adjust well. It has now been 72 hours and we haven’t heard anything from the new owner, so I would assume everything is going well.

On Monday, we went to the office to sign a new lease and declare our two remaining cats. The paperwork wasn’t ready on Monday so we returned yesterday to sign everything. We dropped off our $300 check and received all the lovely paperwork for the one year lease we just signed. The manager gave us a rent concession so our rent dropped enough that when we added on the additional $35 monthly pet rent, our total comes to only $5 per month more than it was last year.

Praise the Lord.

Everything worked out really well, though I still feel guilty for adopting out one of our cats. I’ve always been of the opinion that when you adopt an animal, you adopt them for their life. It creates trauma in an animal’s life to move them around from owner to owner. However, there was nothing we could do in this situation. We either had to find him a new home or lie on our lease paperwork that we didn’t have any pets.

I think we made the right decision.

Decluttering

I am still trying to declutter our apartment. The more stuff we own, the more money we’ve wasted and the more time I spend cleaning or taking care of it all. No thanks. I’ve been inspired by Lara’s blog, especially this post, this post, this video, and a few other posts in her archives. It really is freeing to get rid of excess.

So far this year, I have given away, thrown away, or sold the following:

140 articles of clothing (both mine and hubby’s, though mostly mine)
9 pairs of shoes
14 hangers (many more to go)
6 towels
1 heating pad
60+ books
14 misc. items
21 items from the medicine chest
13 items from under the bathroom sink

I haven’t even touched the closet in the spare bedroom.

I still have too many clothes. I’ve been eating fairly well and exercising so I’ve lost 39 pounds so far. As far as I can tell, all of the clothes I’ve shrunk out of are gone. As I continue to lose weight, I’m going to get rid of everything that doesn’t fit. I don’t think I will have anything to wear when I reach my goal weight as I haven’t been that size since before I got married.

I’ve decided to try an experiment. I pushed all of my clothes to the back of the closet. As I wear something and wash it, I will leave it hanging in the front. In 60 days, whatever is still in the back of the closet is going to the donation bin. That way, even if I don’t continue to lose weight, I’m still paring down my closet to only what I wear. The 100 things challenge, Cassandra’s closet. From skirts and tops to shoes and t-shirts, I’m going to own as little as possible.

Caught up

It’s so nice to have all the housework caught up. I know housework is never “done” but it’s so much easier to stay on top of it when you’re not deep cleaning all the time. Today I came home from my workout, ate breakfast, washed the dishes, and spent some time cleaning the kitchen. There wasn’t much to do – wipe off the counters, wipe off the cupboard doors, clean out the microwave, sweep, and spot mop the floor.

Because I didn’t have to spend much time on my cleaning today, I spent extra time working on my Japanese. We don’t have money for college classes, so I’m using resources online. Today I studied for two hours. Usually I aim for an hour a day, 6 days a week, but I studied way more than was planned this afternoon. My brain is fried. In a good way.

Household projects

One of my current projects is putting together a recipe book. Hubby and I have been eating a vegan diet for the past five months but half of my recipe collection requires dairy. It’s time I finally update my recipes.

I’ve been looking for a three ring binder for quite awhile. I wanted something pretty and durable. After looking at Wal-Mart, Target, Office Max, Amazon.com, and Staples, I finally found the perfect binder.

I love it. It’s very elegant and pretty. Perfect for a homemaker!

Now I have to type out all of my recipes. I’ve recently fallen in love with Microsoft’s OneNote program and am slowly adding all of my recipes to a virtual notebook. I love that the notebooks can be set up with tabs so I can easily find the recipe I’m looking for. It’s so much easier to use than Word.

I’m still trying to perfect my “refried” beans recipe. The last batch came out rather bland. I write down all the ingredients in each batch so that I can figure out the perfect combination to make fat free, flavorful beans. Making “refried” beans from a bag of beans is very simple and just involves tossing everything in a crockpot. I also know it’s way cheaper and healthier than buying them canned. But I’m still trying to perfect the taste.

7 Days

A week of company seems to require a week of recovery. I am almost feeling back to normal, though my body has not yet returned to a normal sleeping pattern. Maybe this week?

I want to get back to regular posting, now that I’m returning to some semblance of a schedule. I’m just not used to going, going, going all the time. That week with company was lovely but I am happy to be back to the quiet. Peace and quiet. I love my husband!

Starting a new quilt

Due to hubby’s insistence and the encouragement of friends, I made time this afternoon to work on my quilting. When I finished my first quilt, I made a commitment to complete another quilt for the church’s women ministries charity program. I am temporarily setting aside my grandfather’s quilt as his birthday is not until December.

The church gave me two colors of fabric to start with but I wanted to have most of my fabric in hand before starting. The last quilt was a challenge because we were planning out the design as I was putting the blocks together. That type of on-the-fly planning is totally against my nature. So last night, hubby and I went to Joann’s and picked out a few more fabrics. The two purple fabrics in the foreground are the ones the church provided and those in the back are the ones we picked out last night.

I decided I wanted to do something a little more complicated than my first quilt so a friend suggested I try a Double 9 Patch block. Searching around the internet I found these instructions for a 12 inch quilt block, which is exactly what I need to reach the 49″ x 60″ measurements the church wants. Until I sat down to work out all the math, I had no idea how small the squares would be or how many I would have to cut out.

So far I’ve cut out 46 squares that are 1 7/8″ each. According to my calculations, I need 160 lavender squares total so I have a lot more squares to cut out tomorrow.

This quilt is my inspiration so I’m excited to see how my quilt will turn out.

Motivation

Today is the third day in a row that I have washed, dried, and put away ALL the dishes. I think it’s a personal record.

My schedule is working fairly well so far. In the mornings, I clean. I’m assigning one room to each day and cleaning it thoroughly, plus completing the chores that have to be done every single day. Then I spend the first hour after lunch studying Japanese. I feel like I’m learning a lot since I’m finally putting in the necessary time.

After studying Japanese, I work on whatever project is in progress. Today I spent more time in the afternoon cleaning off my desk. I made myself decide: am I going to throw this away, put it away in its proper place, or file it? I forced myself to choose one of the three options instead of merely shuffling things around the apartment. It took hours today. My desk cleaning is almost complete, other than a few odds and ends that I will finish up tomorrow.

Now if I could just find time to quilt… I keep putting off the quilting because I feel that everything else is more important. Hubby says I need to make time to quilt instead of only pulling it out after everything else is done. I just feel guilty spending time doing something fun instead of productive, though quilting is both fun and productive. Tomorrow I’m definitely setting aside some time to work on my quilt.

Bad choice

I snapped at my husband tonight while we were at the supermarket. He wanted me to pick a spaghetti sauce that I would like and I just wanted him to make a decision. I should be thankful for a husband that cares more about my preferences than his own instead of getting aggravated.

I am thankful.

But all those verses in Proverbs that speak of the importance of taming the tongue have obviously not taken root in my heart.